Since the last post, I have hurt and/or alienated a very special friend and stepped down from a position that has had a big part in defining who I am for over three years. I came to a place where I was ready to explode ~ I'd been sick for over a year even before my wreck in January that broke my ribs & back. I hadn't been able to contribute where I thought I should. Just when I would think I could 'turn the burner back on' things would pile in on me again. I am tired of staying in bed. I want to be able to do stuff again. Finally, the pain, frustration, fear, helplessness, and anger exploded and I said I couldn't do it anymore! I had tried to take care of a situation that came up and failed. I cried my heart out for three hours afterward, but what's done is done! I've shut myself off from everyone, don't post in my groups like I used to or work with the files. I can't. I can finally walk outside and sit in the chair for a few minutes, but then I have to go back to bed.
I'm shutting up before I get to crying again and guess what? I'm going to have to go back to bed. Maybe I'll put on a tape of the dolphins and let them sing me to sleep.
my heart goes out to you sweetie, hope you get better very soon~ prayers and blessings coming your way~ Goddess bless~
~*Donna*~glitter-graphics.com
11:27 PM EST